From the moment you were born, you may have felt like something was different. You never quite fit in with your family. Maybe you were the black sheep, the one who saw things differently, felt things deeply, and questioned what others accepted. Maybe you grew up in a household filled with negativity, emotional pain, or even abuse. But why? If you are a chosen one—someone with a higher purpose, a deeper awareness, and a unique path—you were not placed in a toxic family by accident. You were placed there on purpose. It may not feel like a gift, but once you understand the reason behind it, everything changes. Because the truth is, the strongest souls are given the hardest battles. And those battles are not punishments. They are training.
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I am chosen I awakened 5 months ago I am dangerously anointed but I had a horrible life my father really physically abused me my mother mentally abused me I ran away from home at 11 years old my life since then has been prison, homelessness, hostels now I am 46 it’s been a rough journey I suffer bad with PTSD and I find it hard to leave my home I am also in contact with a torture service because I wake up screaming at night I medicate a lot but can’t stay easy I’m still waiting on God to tell me what is next I feel the Angels watching me but I help people when I can now I can’t help myself God is good bless who ever reads this.
I am so sorry you had to go through all this. This is not the life any child should have to endure. However, you are now 46 and can make your own choices.
Know that isolation is the worst thing you can do for your mental health. Please feel free to call Warmline any night from 4:30 pm – 7:30 pm. They can also call you on appointed days to check in with you, if you like. I don’t know if you live near/in Butler, but our Drop-In Center is open and free. You will find peers who understand, and resources.
You don’t have to suffer alone.
Meanwhile, Nature is very healing, so it is important to get outside and exercise, especially now, before Winter comes. A healthy, active body positively influences the mind.
I would also recommend meditation. There is an excellent one earlier in our blog: https://grapevinecenter.org/2018/04/20/guided-meditation-to-heal-empower/
Also, try the Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT) https://grapevinecenter.org/alternative-views-resources/eft/
This is obviously too much to digest at once, but when you have time, these are very helpful:
There is so much that can help you break the power of the trauma you have experienced,
but actually connecting with people who are in the same situation is of inestimable value.
Also, don’t forget God. That is your lifeline.
God bless and good luck.
Hoping to see you here soon.